Yesterday, in the comments, MizFit asked if my post today would follow up by talking about my dreams.
The question haunted me all day long. It's a great question, after all, and after reflecting and thinking and trying to distract myself to no avail, i have to admit, i have no idea what to say.
Right now, i'm more concerned with making it financially through the month than i am with what i really want in life. Every month is like that, and the kids already know their holiday gifts this year will be new tires for one of the vehicles.
Right now, i'm more concerned with raising my kids, finding Bigger Girl's lost keys, making sure the litter boxes are scooped, finding Sweetie's lost glasses, staying somewhat up with the laundry, finding Little Girl's lost notebook, scheduling kittens for spay or neuter and getting them to the vet, finding #2 Son's lost baseball cap -- yes, they lose everything --
Right now, there's not much time or room for dreaming.
Part of me wants to get sappy and melancholic and all philosophical and the other part is saying, put a sock in it, suck it up, and go get #2 Son to get the garbage out, there's no time for writing, especially on a subject that's been done before, and done well, by much better people than you.
Besides, while i've been staring at the white screen and trying to fill it, i've stopped to get a flashlight to help find the aforementioned car keys, fed the kittens, done a google search for Sweetie, and stopped to wash the dishes again.
Right now, it seems, the only "dreams" are the ones that occur in REM sleep, and it may stay that way for a while.
Today is:
Alaska Day -- Alaska, US
Biketoberfest -- Daytona Beach, FL, US (last chance to ride before winter, and enjoy concerts and shows, too; through Sunday)
Clean Water Act Day -- US (considered by many a day to give thanks for water and open any who are grateful for clean water)
East Texas Yamboree -- Gilmer, TX, US (yam it up with the family at the carnival, watch them crown the Yamboree Queen, enjoy the livestock show, and more; through Saturday)
Get Smart About Credit Day -- sponsored by the American Bankers Association
Get to Know Your Customers Day -- third Thursday of every quarter
Independence Day -- Azerbaijan(1991)
International Credit Union Day
King Look Under Your Mattress's Unique Hiding Display -- Fairy Calendar (Finally! Proof, on the internet, that you do, indeed, need to look under the mattress!)
National Chocolate Cupcake Day
National Statistics Day -- Japan
No Beard Day -- internet generated, a day to shave, which is illogical in the northern hemisphere, with winter coming
Pandrosus Festival -- Ancient Greek Calendar (all-refreshing goddess, or all-dewy one; date approximate)
Persons Day -- Canada (Marking the ruling that women are persons in 1929.)
Preaching of the Lion Sermon -- St. Katharine Cree Church, London, England (Sermon dating back to the 1640's in commemoration of a gift for the poor made by Sir John Gayer, who was delivered from a lion while in Turkey)
Procession of the Lord of Miracles (Senor de los Milagros) -- Lima, Peru (Christian celebration of the Lord's miracles, with song, dance, prayers, and parades; through tomorrow and again on the 28th)
St. Luke's Day (The Evangelist; Patron of artists, bachelors/unmarried men, bookbinders, brewers, butchers, doctors/physicians/surgeons, glass makers/glassworkers, gold workers/goldsmiths, lacemakers/lace workers, notaries, painters, sculptors, stained glass workers, Worshipful Company of Painters; Capena, Italy; Hermersdorf, Germany)
Watch a Squirrel Day -- internet generated, and different from squirrel appreciation day in January
World Menopause Day -- sponsored by the International Menopause Society
Anniversaries Today:
University of Heidelberg opens, 1386
Birthdays Today:
Zac Efron, 1988
Wynton Marsalis, 1961
Erin Moran, 1960
Jean-Claude Van Damme, 1960
Martina Navratilova, 1956
Pam Dawber, 1951
Laura Nyro, 1947
Mike Ditka, 1939
Dawn Wells, 1938
Peter Boyle, 1935
George C. Scott, 1927
Chuck Berry, 1926
Melina Mercouri, 1923
Jesse Helms, 1921
Anita O'Day, 1919
Lotte Lenya, 1900
Today in History:
Pappus of Alexandria, Greek philosopher, observes an eclipse of the sun and writes a commentary on The Great Astronomer (Almagest), 320
Caliph Al-Hakim bi-Amr Allah destroys the Church of the Holy Sepulchre in Jerusalem, 1009
Battle of Assadun (Ashingdon), Danes defeat Saxons, 1016
Basel, Switzerland is destroyed by the Basel earthquake, the most significant historic seismological event north of the Alps, 1356
Fourth Battle of Kawanakajima -- Takeda Shingen defeats Uesugi Kenshin in the climax of their ongoing conflicts in feudal Japan, 1561
The shoemakers of Boston form the first labor organization in the Colonies/US, 1648
The Mason/Dixon line is agreed upon, 1767
Herman Melville's Moby-Dick is first published as The Whale by Richard Bentley of London, 1851
The US takes formal possession of Alaska from Russia, for $7.2 million, 1867
Edison makes electricity available for household use, 1878
John Owen becomes the first formally timed person to run 100 yd dash in under 10 seconds, 1890
The first actual newspaper comic strip telling a continuing story (as opposed to a single cartoon panel) appears in American Humorist, 1897
United States takes possession of Puerto Rico, 1898
The British Broadcasting Company (later Corporation) is founded, 1922
The Grand Ole Opry opens in Nashville, Tennessee, 1925
Texas Instruments announces the first Transistor radio, 1954
The Soviet probe Venera 4 reaches Venus and becomes the first spacecraft to measure the atmosphere of another planet, 1967
Azerbaijan becomes independent from the USSR, 1991
After 8 years in exile, Benazir Bhutto returns to her homeland Pakistan, 2007
OK, I'm with MizFit on this one; I have a bit of a bias that EVERYONE deserves to have their own dreams.
ReplyDeleteYou are so generous that it sounds like 100% of any spare time or energy goes to others; wondering what dreams might tentatively emerge if you let that sometimes drop to 97%?
Actually, reading between the lines, and having followed your blog, I hear some themes already: dreams of helping those in need without being totally overwhelmed; having enough financial security to feel comfortable and not stressed; enjoying your deep connection with family and community and spirituality in ways that feel joyful, building on your gifts for self-expression in ways that are satisfying...
Bet there are more, and I suspect in quiet moments, if you ALLOW yourself some room for dreams, little wisps of specific pictures might emerge for how life could have more peace and joy and less worry, even in tough times.
Sheesh I'm annoying this morning, sorry! You just seem SO resourceful when your efforts are directed towards others that I can't help wanting to see you shine some of that light on yourself as well! (Selfishly, because I like you so much and I hate to think of you feeling overwhelmed).
There are also non-rem dreams . . . fyi.
ReplyDeletewell, okaaay. Dreams on pause. I get that. But don't pause for too long. xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteCrabby, you are never annoying, and you are probably right.
ReplyDeleteJohn, someday; and Josie, the pause will probably be quite a while yet.
There will be plenty of time for dreaming in the future when you have time to take a breather.
ReplyDeleteYou have family you love, you have work to do, and kittens. Maybe, for now, that's enough. (Though I must say, a bit of extra cash on hand is always a nice dream... Ahem...) You'll figure out your dream, even if perhaps, you trip over it! (However, please do not hurt yourself, should you do so. Tripping is not fun, when you end up in the hospital.)
ReplyDeleteSigned,
Cat, who tripped on Llama Poop, from her dream of having fiber animals. 'Nuff said. ;D